Wednesday, April 3, 2013
Not All Gifts Come Naturally.
In which case, revisited 30 years later, a gift may come quite unnaturally. But if something pulls at you, repeatedly, relentlessly, even though you feel little proficiency or ability in that area, do not discount it as a gift because it is not effortless.
Often we need to hone our crafts, practice and master our gifts. If this didn't happen in childhood it's not too late to start a practice now.
Try these 2 exercises to assist with exploring potential gifts:
Revisit what you enjoyed as a child.
What did you spend hours on end doing and what seemed easy and fun? Make a list, brainsketch it. Start with one and see where it takes you. How much can you remember of your childhood interests?
Then look for cycles in your adult years. Any repeating themes? Activities you return to yet abandon because you feel you aren't good enough at them or can't see a practical use for them? Themes in the type of books you read, articles you Google. Perhaps there's a latent gift that is ripe for developing into a delicious craft. Maybe the timing and conditions needed to be right, proper seasoning and maturity didn't exist before that exists now.
Remember Rumi's words, "What you seek is seeking you." If something is pulling at you, luring you towards it, don't let lack of confidence or proficiency stop you. Take time to still yourself and your thoughts each day to listen for what seeks you, to allow it to find you. Once united, commit to exploring it further, deepening your relationship with it.
As Michelangelo has been quoted, "If people knew how hard I worked to get my mastery, it wouldn't seem so wonderful after all." Not all gifts come easy and often the insights are in the labour.
Say YES to what is calling you and commit time every day, a diligent practice, towards honing it. 6 months from now...2 years... what you will have learned, about your craft and about yourself, may nourish you in ways you never imagined. 10 years...15...what can you master in this lifetime?
Once you say yes to what is calling you, often all the support needed falls into place, not always at once, more like a string of mala beads, guiding you one by one to the guru bead...to go around again if you choose, limitless. How many gifts can you discover and what will they reveal as you explore and deepen them?